Nano Day Five

What's this? Another blog post a day after the other one? *gasp* What mythical forces combined to create this level of blogging productivity?

Yeah, I'm totally procrastinating on my nano.

So I've transitioned again. At the beginning of nano I was in 'blah this story is stupid' phase. Then I switched to 'OMG LOVE SO MUCH' phase and I milked it for all it was worth and got many words. Now I'm in the terrified 'why did I ever think I could write a book I'm not talented enough and there are so many words and days left I'll never make it' phase.

This phase mostly consists of sheer terror and avoidance. I'm not worried, it'll pass. How can I be calm and terrified at the same time you don't ask? Simple. The emotional bits of my brain are enmeshed in these ups and downs, but there's a logical part that is fully aware that I've gone through this before: last time I wrote a novel. And the time before that. And the time before that.

This is old burrito to Logic Voice. Unfortunately, Emotional Voice doesn't listen to Logic Voice and is still running in circles screaming story murder.

And so. I am both. And I make grammar nazis cry. It's a talent.

Let's see, my advice for getting through the crazed process of writing a novel? Write. Put aside the doubts and confusions and just write. The story will get you there. It knows what it's doing. Trust in that, when you lose faith in yourself. Stories are smarter than people.

Now I'm going to quit pretending to be deep and go take my own advice.